Sunday, August 27, 2006

wth.
had a chaoticday yesterday.
started off with werking at bedok ah.
otw home, bala picked me up.
cos we planned to go jb ah.
so he waited bwh blk while i change for abit.
den proceeded to jb.
peh jam!
wahliao.
by the time we went in was already like 5?
yea.
wasted time alot ah.
after dat i called bro and he said he wanted to pick me up.
so i left bala and waited for asyQee at komtar's bustop.
with bala's extra helmet cos he didnt have one for me.
haiyoh.
useless bro.
tk abes2 menyusahkan me and bala.
so bala left for spore cos he had a chalet going on at 6.
den asyQee picked me up and brought me to meet his frens.
haiz.
rosak rosak.
siak btol.
dey were drinking.
he drinkssss.
wtf ah.
alasan die?
he's stress bout sinta.
ape siak.
and den dey were drinking and drinking.
der was kecik n girl, gemok, gajah, epul, abang and asyQee.
and den timon, linda and tepo joined.
followed by mizie and yaya.
so i was just sitting der like an idiot watching de guys drink.
kental siak.
if not wrong, epul, mok and kecik were like drinking and challenging who can drink the most and the fastest ah.
kental siak.
dey are a bunch of kental kids who tries to be cool by drinking ah.
konon nye "wah aku bleh minom lebih dari kau..kau bodoh aku pandai.."
dat kinda thing u noe.
and den i was just sitting ah.
dey were like very dramatic ah.
minum tgh2 ptg buta.
den dah mabok sume mcm bdk gile.
abeh si linda plak, die baru cerai dgn pakwe die abeh nk nanges2.
"aku sayangkan die..."
ape siak.
timon dah memang cam pompan tk btol.
but shes not drunk.
she's like dat ah.
the girls didnt drink wat.
only de guys.
after dat, we al proceeded off ah.
dah mlm kan.
tak salah dgr2 nk go makan ah.
abang nk blanje.
den dah smp like danga bay gitu.
bike count jap, 2 motor tkde.
kecik n girl, n abang n mok.
ape siak.
den tepo got a call.
i think abg called and asked us to patah balek.
so we went back.
bac to the lepak place.
the bustop der ah at least.
and noe wat, dey were fighting.
like wtf sia.
kecik and mok if im not wrong.
den abg and epul tried to stop dem.
waddehell.
ended up de 4 of dem gadoh.
last2, epul binget, he got on bike and rode off.
even after gajah tried to stop him.
den after dat.
woah.
sumthing heart-wrenching happened.
gosh.
abg was wearing THE HELMET.
tgh2 die nak stop mok n kecik ni gadoh, i guess die pon dah naek rimas dgn DAT HELMET on his head, he took it off and threw it on the floor lah siaaaakkkk!!!!
like eh sialah!!!
aku peh hati mcm WTF??!!
aku mcm nk nanges siol tgk helmet tu dicampak dgn begitu sahaje.
sial btol!
bertambahlah pissed off aku dibuat nye.
i really felt like taking a gun and shoot all those fuckin drunkards.
siak btol.
den i carefully, lifted the helmet from the floor.
like a baby, i held it close to me.
i laid it slowly on an empty space.
den ape ntah, ape ntah.
gajah managed to calm mok down.
den si mok ni pi dudok depan helmet tu.
den tk lame, kecik start "bukak" balek.
saying things dat provoked mok.
den si mok got agitated and almost knock the helmet down to the floor siak.
waduh2.
lagi skali, my heart like "oh god." kejap.
haiz.
den i took the helmet, placed it next to mizie (cute) and said "eh, tlg eh..jagekan.."
and he just smiled.
wtf.
den de show went on.
during the interval i went to 7-11 and bought sum snacks to munch on while watching the show.
bought seaweeds also.
de show was like ape seh, close to 2 hrs.
wtf.
seriously, it wasted my time.
if i had known dis wud happened, i wud haf left for spore with bala seh.
urgh.
wth ah.
membingetkans.
niwaes gtg.
daa.
peace.



Friday, August 25, 2006


hate YOU part II.
ape sial.
bodoh.
im starting to really hate you rite now.
like really seriously truly.
i cant even stand to look at you now.
everytime i try to, hatred fills me like, totally.
i dunno ah.
since dat chat.
i dunno what the fuck u want.
like seriously.
ape kau nak ni?????
urgh.
knnccb ah.
gi mampos ah.
get this clear.
i dun even wanna be ur fren.
so get lost.
get out of my life.
dun start to piss me off again.
dun let it start all over again.
dun bother bout my life.
bother bout ur fucking self first.
get this straight.
"are you my anything?"
well, u are.
ure just an unwanted pest in my life.
dats it man.
gosh.
wtf.
i shall say no more.
get lost.



Thursday, August 24, 2006


gosh.
its 3 in the morning.
dun think im getting any sleep today.
goin school later for the maths remedial thingy.
im supposed to be like studying rite now.
but im not.
just dun feel like it.
dunno why, but i really cant get mysef to study for this exam.
i mean, i noe dat i really hafta, cos if not im gonna like, practically die.
but i just cant get myself to it.
argh.
tomorrow!
no deelee darelee.
lol.
however u spell dat.
well, a few stuff to update on.
this fri, maths2 paper.
this sun, beep's sis wedding.
next tues, epdes paper.
next thur, dfund paper.
gosh.
takotnyer.
lol.
woohoo.
i just destressed myself.
was chating with jackson for abit der.
hahaha.
he switched on his webcam.
wat sia.
next to him was fadhil.
next to him, joyce.
next to her, x-lex.
hehehe.
miss dem lar.
heee.
and im also destressing myself bby listening to hafiz's songs.
siak btol.
hahahahhahah.
waddefuck.
mrepek siak.
lol.
nyeahahhaha.
but den again eh, i dun really haf much to destress lah.
heee.
yah.
so as i was saying.
yea haf no mood.
but i'll try.
yesterday went shopping.
walked to int from pasar and window shopped.
on the way bought 2 tops, one sweater.
7 bucks in total.
after dat went to wdlands lib.
studied for abit den mean joined.
after dat we rounded cwp.
went to watsons and i bought some facial thingies.
lol.
first time seh nk amek kisah pasal muke ni sume.
niapadah.
after dat went to metro.
i bought 2 sportsbra.
using my own money.
like wow bagoskan.
first time tau.
ahh.
so in total i sent like 7+8+13=28
on all those things.
heee.
best.
at least i didnt waste it on food.
unlike today.
haiyah.
went to school.
didnt study much.
played around, wasted time.
finally jalan2tamp.
ape siak.
ate at lj.
treated wak n nut.
yeayea.
eh noe wat?
i think i better get sum rest.
urgh.
daaa.



Monday, August 21, 2006


feeling so lazy rite now.
just pigged out on tidbits with my bro just now.
ate a lil bit of each, which eventually totals up to alot.
the pretzelish-wheels, prawn crackers, mushroom thingy(not nice!), fish fillet strips.
siak.
and i bought crunchie.
heee.
its monday.
i always happen to have a fetish to binge and pig and just plain eat alot on mondays.
heh.
ate meehoon sup in the morning, sum kuehs, and all the tid-bits.
sumore i had the cheek to think of eating ice cream.
wth.
i really need sumone or sumthing to motivate me to lose weight.
gosh.
now im sleepy.
niwaes, went to the makan2 at wak's place yesterday.
went with asyQee on bike.
hah.
met nadia, rusy, farhan, hafiz.
den shida and hisyam came.
den yuni and her farhan came.
den nasrul came.
den faz came.
den we left.
oh well.
yesterday, pigged out also.
chicken, hotdogs, sotongball, currypuff, jemput2 udang, crabmeat stick.
came home, daddy bought durians.
again.
haiz.
den hadta eat.
again.
finally.
at the end of the day, felt really bloated with stuff.
i really felt like throwing up.
and i did.
forced myself.
urgh.
disgusting.
den went to sleep early.
heee.
nice sweet outing yesterday.
today, planned to go to school or study at the lib.
but i reached home like 3.
so it was kinda late.
furthermore my lil bro is sick.
so i decided to stay home and take care of him.
lol.
family bonding or wat.
yesterday, was good to asyQee.
bought for him the crogs imi.
he liked it.
uhuh.
well, so im just staying home.
i feel like a load has been lifted off cos i settled all my bills and stuff.
paid my remaining amount of bill, bought concession, bought a pack of kotex.
de next thing to focus on now is the vans black n gold.
yeayea.
and to save money.
heeee.
woooohhhhoooooo.
peace.



Saturday, August 19, 2006


hooo.
been a long 3 days.
thurs was weird.
fri was piss-ful.
and today is tiring.
THURSDAY:
woke up with only like maximum 2 hours of sleep.
tried to stay up the whole nite.
but finally fell asleep at 4.
lol.went to school.
mike picked me up.
lucky me.
thanks alot mike.
after dat, left school around 1 with nina and mike.
mike sent us home.
before dat he treated us to lunch at lj yishun.
ape seh.
dah mcm bapak and anak2.
amek kite dari skola, den gi lunch.
lol.
mak keje lah.
hahaha.
well, after dat he sent us home.
wheee.
i went back, took mp3 and went lib.
studied epdes.
dat was until dis initially-tot-he-was-cute-but-now-irritating guy disturbed me.
the first time i saw him i tot he was ok.
den he called me over to sit with dem.
btw the other 2 of his frens were from woodgrove, same batch as myself.
yah, and den i joined dem cos the table i was sitting at was already like overloaded.
kau.
ingat mcm cool guy mane, abang2 mane kan.
cos i only like glanced at him.
den part die bbual.
kau.
tk bleh angkat!
kentalanbuahlodeh btol!
turns out adek2 ah siak.
as soon as i came over, he asked me my name.
den he introduced himself as azli.
den he asked wat skul i was from, tp.
den i asked him back ah, cos he looked like sum poly guy kan.
den at first he said innova jc, pointing at ijc foolscap on the table.
i was kinda surprised ah, but sembarang ah, buat bodo je ah.
den die ketawe2 nonstop hits.
lamer giler tau, smp kan it made me feel awkward.
ape sial.
babi ah.
den after dat, he said he was from bmc academy.
abeh tros die tanye "dah brape lame dgn matair?"
i went like "huh? wtf?"
ape siak.
tu part tros dah malas nk layan die.
he seem too eager so its kinda boring.
tkde challenge langsong.
its like a total turn off ah.
urgh.
and den he started telling me his story bout him and ex-gf.
like.
whatever!
den last2 he asked for my number.
den i like terpakse ah, cos he was like sitting rite in front of me sia.
takkan nk lari.
den dat nite he called and msged i didnt reply.
sapa mau layan seh.
irritating shit nyer.
ah den skg dah senyap.
heee.
bagos bagos.
FRIDAY:
i hate khalid.
totally hate-guys day.
update next time.
TODAY:
went to bedok as usual.
den makcik yg tlg my dad tk dtg.
siak btol.
reefinn plak tkde.
so i hadta help out both today.
was damn tiring.
binget siak at firstly, dat makcik, secondly, reefinn, and thirdly, daddy.
who likes to werk wif him also i dunno ah.
oh well.
yang sudah tu sudah.
oh! and i saw nina's aunt just now.
she and sape tu, ija tk salah.
i dunno the name ah.
i was washing plates.
den baru nk kluar salam dem, dey went off dy.
ape dah.
nk msg nina dari tadi asek lupe jek.
haha.
anyways, got home to find out dat asyQee is here.
ni satu.
tk abes2 nk menyusahkan aku.
sial peh jantan.
argh.
helmet tu ntah ape dah jadi.
i told him i dun wanna masok campor, den he was happy.
he said it kinda made it easier for him to "menghilang".
sial ah.
now im like stuck in the middle.
si bala ni dahlah buat prangai.
urgh.
wtf ah.
cam cibai ah jantan2 ni sume.
haiz.
hate-guys partII.
haiz.
dunno lah kan.
ape nk jadi, jadi lah.
gosh.
malas nk layan.
skarang, aku nk go study.
wheeee.
peace.



Wednesday, August 16, 2006


betol peh lagging sak ni com.
now its still like loading.
haiyah.
whateverlah.
well, exams coming.
after exams, holidays.
during holidays there's this BIE camp and dey asked us for help.
after submitting de names, people making plans to go some place else.
i dunno ah.
dah submit seh name.
abeh tk tau ah.
drg ckp nk go clubbing lah, nk go east coast lah, yg pentingnye, dey wanna lepak outside.
ape seh.
i dunno ah.
i told fyezal dy dat im going.
i dun think im joining dem ah.
i dun think im wanted der anyways, so what the hell rite.
heee.
limit2 klau drg go, sejarah mungkin berulang.
anyways, i feel like a stranger nowadays.
memang pon per.
well, dats wat i asked for.
heee.
:)
now im living in dis school, alone!
alone!
hahhahaha.
wtf.
lol.
anyways, waiting for 6.30 gitu.
leaving to pasir ris.
meeting ahh smart later.
haiyoh.
for old times sake.
waited for like 4 hrs.
he so owe me sumthing.
oh well.
balek nk blaja.
seriously.
i have no motivation to study whatsoever.
haiz.
too much happened dis semester.
how i wish i cud use the universal remote controand rewind back time.
oh well.
dah ah.
wanna get ready to go off.
peace.



Sunday, August 13, 2006


fcuk.
my body's aching and my ribs are like crushed slightly when i breathe in.
dunno why the hell.
must be cos of the lack of sleep.
gosh.
anyways, again went to esplanade.
dats like the 3rd or 4th time dis week i went der.
also bugis/arab st.
oh well.
fireworks was ok.
the first one i watched, saturday, was like so frustrating, cos of all the tress blocking our view.
which in the end, made me distracted by other things.
haha.
den the second time i went der, was on tues, it was okay.
better but still a lil blocked.
anyways i was already distracted from the beginning cos i wanted to watch the performance and the fireworks didnt matter much to me.
and den yesterday, was the best.
the most clear one i got.
cos well, we were literally by the bay.
nasrul was with his cuzzins and dey've been like sitting der since i dunno what time.
we came at 6.30 like dat.
tu pon dah pack.
nk go toilet, nk buy icecream n all was really troublesome.
de queue to the girls toilet melampau plak tu.
membuak-buak.
heh.
den finally we just sat ah from like 7.30 to 9 waiting for the fireworks.
noe-ing me, cacing kepanasan, dunno how to sit still for long, i really tried my best to just shut up and sit quietly.
haha.
and i did.
no complains or whinings whatsoever.
haha.
den de fireworks.
it was beautiful.
managed to catch a few pics on my fone.
after dat, we met up with fahmy and faris and teeth.
i dunno how to spell the guys' names.
and den, we split from der.
nasrul went off with cuzzins, pogee went off with fahmee and farees.
haha.
notice the last three guys'names mention all got double Es.
nyeahahaha.
finall there was only me, nad, teeth and nina.
went to marina sq to eat.
but it was freakin packed.
nina went to meet nizam.
and den finally me, nad and teeth went to bugis eat.
tot of going to tongseng.
craving for dat since i dunno when.
finally we just went to lj.
bawriinnng.
had our dinner.
by the end of our dinner, my eyes were heavy dy.
lol.
den proceeded to take the trains.
split with teeth cos she took the bus.
we took the train to marina dy den we got off.
nyeahahahaha.
decided to wait for my mum.
hehehe.
siak.
den went down at city hall.
i was like freaking excited to be at town at nite.
happy and also kinda emo a lil ah.
reminded me of salleh malleh jiggy jig.
hahks.
but whatever it is, we roamed the streets of city hall.
kinda boring ah, cos city hall seh.
if at orchard sumthing ah.
den sat down for a bit and saw jagan and friends.
dey going clubbing.
lol.
where?
indian club.
ahahhaha.
me and nut were like laffing after dey went off.
i was thhinking mesti maen lagu hindustan kape eh, klau tk pon tamil boyz.
nyeahahha.
and we saw this one more tp guy, dunno de same.
smiled at each other.
haha.
den we went back to esplanade, maklomlah, cacing kepanasan.
hahaha.
sat at the lampu.
it was near the alley.
mother msged saying she was watching bhangra.
wakakakkakaka.
siak.
we were sitting2 and den suddenly these two guys walked past us, looked at us and said
"assalamualaikum.."
so we answered ah.
den i like smile je ah.
den he said, "mengeratkan silaturrahim.."
mcm paham.
den waited for abit and den mother called.
i was dead sleepy and slept on the way home.
lol.
yea.
reached home at 1.30.
hahk.
wth.
sampai bedok mcm zombie lagik.
lol.
eh eh.
dah ah.
nk go siap.
heh.
maybe go jb.
peace.

she picked



Saturday, August 12, 2006


*sigh*
waiting for people to call me.
dunno.
dey seem reluctant to contact me.
im not surprised.
called up teeth.
she's joining.
maybe i'll catch a ride from mum.
nina's m.i.a.
tried calling her from just now.
no answer.
faz must be out with baba.
lol.
more like ali baba.
tapi panjang sgt so just baba will do.
heh.
niwaes.
had a shitty morning.
went to meet bala for awhile.
he passed me my sweater and den i updated him for abit.
after dat i went home.
wanted to go to the performance at cp.
nobody wanted to follow.
so like oh well.
even called harry up to ask if he was going cos i checked, and he wasn't werking.
den he said, he's one of the performers.
i was like wth.
and i didnt even noe.
so i guess dat just shows where i stand in his life.
almost non-existent.
*sigh*
oh well.
i think he thinks dat im like chasing after him.
like wtf, jgn prasan sgt ah.
all i wanted was to start afresh as friends.
cos like suddenly we lost contact, was kinda weird.
hmmm.
no further comments ah.
niwaes, going for more fireworks later.
*sigh*
seems like its so obvious now.
oh well.
daaa.
peace.



Wednesday, August 09, 2006


wheee.
had the best "eve of public holiday" yesterday.
:)
started off de day at 8 in the morning already in front of the com.
after dat went to proceed to school for the dfund lecture.
came in like 45 mins late, so in the end i didnt go.
seelah.
no matter how hard i try to go early, i still wont be able to make it on time.
i want a bike!!!
urgh.
anyways, after dat, slacked for abit in school.
was playing the street fighter with idris when she called.
so i went off to meet her, rushing ah, takot she reach first.
turns out i reach der first, and hadta wait for her for like 15mins.
sempat maen a few more games seh.
cheh.
niwaes, we went to cs first cos she wanna go montip.
after dat i went up 2nd floor buy socks, feet was hurtin.
den only we went to bugis.
had our late lunch at bk.
den went to arab st cos she wanted to buy the diy stuff for the waistbelt thingy.
walked and walked and walked til we were both kinda moody and tired.
called nina like a few times just to get the directions to the place.
wth sia.
kedai dahlah tkde name.
agaknye ah.
or i just didnt notice.
dunno ah.
whatever.
after dat, we went back to the mrt to go esplanade.
before dat we stopped by uncle's bike to buy ice-cream.
den slack by the road, taking pics, eating ice-cream.
quite a scene ey.
lol.
after dat went to city hall, saw janice esc in the toilet.
she was waiting for bf alone.
so we chatted for abit.
reached esplanade like 6 sumthing.
was kinda lost looking for the place.
the hiphop place ah.
tot dey were performing at waterfront bay seh.
den malek said, from der turn left.
so we did and we came to a bigggg stage.
like concert big.
haha.
den confident waited der, eat cupcorns, wheels/pretzels/dunno-whats-the-name.
den malek called to ask where were we.
turns out it was at the other end.
we were supposed to turn right.
waddehell seh.
malek, malek.
lol.
den we watched it for abit den got intervals.
so we went up to the bridge and sat der.
chilled for abit.
when we went back down, the crowd at the alley had grown.
dey were doing breakdancing at dat time.
and den another interval.
one hour interval.
wth.
so we went around again,with my feet already hurting.
den we fetched nina.
and we went hunting for a spot where we can enjoy the fireworks.
but the place was like so fuckin crowded.
didnt really enjoy it dat much, just like sat ah.
cos again, the trees were in the way.
and furthermore the alley was a distraction to me ah.
wanted to watch de performance but the girls wanted to enjoy the fireworks.
so again i hadta be their bodyguard.
nyeahahaha.
always happen to watch fireworks with 2 girls.
ape dah.
anyways, after dat immediately joined the crowd at the alley.
sesak siak.
was standing next to nina.
den der was this 2 guys behind us.
memekak siak.
naseb baek klakar ah.
but whatever, still dey were fuckin irritating.
after dat, another interval.
merepek kan.
toilet, popcorn, wheels/pretzels/dunno-whats-the name, ice cream and sat in a circle.
kinda like leaned on each other ah.
like Y.
heh.
den performance started.
freakyz on stage.
(im trying to contain my excitement, cos im like tryin to sound like im a guy in dis post.)
coolness.
he was aight.
den psyckelecticz.
i dunno how de hell u spell dat.
den we proceeded off.
her parents came to pick her up.
wanted to send me home but its okay.
dey dropped me off at dhobyghaut station.
went back, in the train saw fareez n frens.
aliff seh.
wth.
the las time i saw him was like during bangku sekolah.
der were 3 of dem.
dey called me over but i was shy.
(ok ni part dah nk kene jadik pompan balek.)
shy ah seh.
dey were like 3 person der.
one of dem aliff and one of dem cute guy.
den i didnt go over at first.
furthermore the train was packed.
i dun wish to go thru the trouble of langgar-ing ppl sume.
cos ive always hated how ppl langgar me.
urgh.
ok anyways, dey kept on looking over and askin me to cum over, and den fareez like pointed to one of dem (aliff or cute guy), and like hand-signaled to me like "call/phone" like konon nk mintak no lah.
so i got more paiseh.
der i was standing, alone msg-ing2.
den de getai girl n frens were standing next to me.
another bunch of dumb airheads.
"tadi richard nmpk aku tk tegor pon...ah tu freakyz! omgomgomg!"
cos dey were like watching the video dey took over at the alley.
kental siak.
so i decided to divert my attention to another direction.
and dengan tk sengaje terpandang mama-pundek-whose-eyes-were-begging-to-be-gourge-out.
ni baru motherfucker siak.
aku prasan ah he was like staring at me, dats why in the first place i was forced to turn to the left, where the airheads were.
den dah tkleh tahan, terlalu meluat tgk the getais, turned to the front den tertgk si mama pundek tu lagik.
den he was like licking his lips.
mailto:WTF?!!!!!!!@!!#@!$@$%@%^$%
KNNCCB.
den luckily dah smp yishun cos mmg i wanted to go over to dem when dah smp yishun.
dey kept on looking at my direction.
den evrytime dey looked over, i became shy, everytime i became shy, i smiled to myself, everytime i smile to myself, people look at me one kind.
so finally i spared myself from the freaky stares and went over.
dtg sane, satu2 terdiam.
den chatted for abit.
den dey made fun of my name jap.
abeh fareez ckp "eh dah ah, jgn ah...nanti die complain pat matair aku ah..."
lol.
dey alighted at admiralty.
i went down at woodlands cos i was meeting slenger and imp and syaf and ella.
civics mac dey were.
sat for a while and den went off our separate ways.
reached home at 1.15.
slept at 2, woke up at 5.
reached bedok in zombie mode.
heh.
thanks dear for the nice outing.
i'll see u on fri/sat if ali's not der again.
daa.
peace.



Tuesday, August 08, 2006


its so peaceful goin online in the morning.
everyone's at school or sleepin.
so i dun haf any fuckers bothering me in msn.
waddehell.
there was this one guy who added me in msn some time back.
email add was: sin_da_bad
crap sak.
first time i saw him online, he tegor me.
"who da fuck is dis??"
i was kinda shocked at the rude intro, den i said.
"u added me. who are u?"
he said.
"i asked who de fuck is dis, not who added who. so tell me now."
den i was like wtf?!
"hello, i am "go fuck urself" if u wanna keep on talking like a motherfucker."
he wanna return the favour, so he said.
"if u dun like my attitude, u can call 1800-kiss-my-ass."
den i said, "ohh i sure will. thanks."
den ape ntah, ape ntah.
he said sumthing like "just because u think ure pretty, dun think dat im gonna talk nicely to u."
or sumthing like dat ah maksod nye.
den i said "who said dat im pretty? and who said dat im a girl?"
den he replied, "well i can tell from the way u talk. ur stupidity and*somethingsomething* shows from the way u talk."
den i didnt reply, malas nk layan.
i changed my nick to "go phuck urself, u phucker!"
den he tegor me again, "u may seem like u dun like talking to me, but U R"
i was lost, so i asked, "i am what?"
den he asked me to wait.
waddehell.
waited for awhile, nuthin happened.
den off i sent him to my rubbish bin.
waddefuck seh.
why are these online people picking fights with me??
urgh.
whatever lah.
just thinking back bout all this has made me lost my mood.
benci.
lol.
anyways, been wanting to update on saturday's outing with beep n mean.
but at first i tot, nanti ade jer ORANG ingat aku carik beep ngan mean skg, since dah tkde kwn.
but den i realized, why de fuck shud i care?
from what i noe, i didnt look for dem, dey asked me out to see the fireworks.
the only reason i didnt look for dem was because i noe beep was busy with attachments and stuff. and mean, TEP or sumthing ah.
ANYWAYS, went to esplanade last sat.
had fun.
i left my house ard 7.30 gitu.
met dem, and we were off to esplanade.
it was sooo pharkin packed!
like we hadta jalan berpusu2 to get closer to see the fireworks.
so we walked until we cannot walk nimore.
den the fireworks started, and i looked up.
all i could see is the fireworks being hidden by tall trees rite in front of us.
wtf.
den i got tired of watching the trees, beep n mean were like smangat watching dat thing.
i just stood behind dem, like their bodyguard.
nyeahahaha.
after dat we bergerak ah.
there was alot alot alot of "kids nowadays".
urgh.
beep n mean, says i look like one.
maybe cos of the way i dressed dat day.
i dunno.
we went to an end of the esplanade.
tot of looking for the marina south park or something.
but dey were malas like halfway there.
anyways, i wasnt really sure if we were going de rite way.
den we chilled at the side ah, one corner, by the railings ah.
took pics, chilled, took pics, chilled.
after dat we went to tmpt yg entrance to the esplanade, the one by the road.
sat at the stairs ah.
den i told dem what's happenening in my life.
like everything ah.
den after dat, tot wanna go have supper.
lau pa sat or wat.
but mean was like really late.
so we went back.
took the train to marina and bounced back to woodlands.
again, took pics, laff2, took pics, laff, shhh, took pics, den we got tired.
hahahha.
den beep went to bk to buy herself supper cos she waas starving.
from woodlands we took the cab home since mean was like "im-so-dead" late.
and i reached home like 12.30.
everyone was up cept my dad.
oh well.
had sweet wonderful fun time with the girls.
i gave beep a few advices.
and she was so sweet, she said "if u were in nyp, i wouldnt let dem do dat to u.."
thanks sweetie.
i'll never forget u guys lah k.
:)
peace.



Sunday, August 06, 2006


hah.
seems like people around me are having problems similar to mine.
wth ah.
today i was having an okay day.
at least a boring one.
dat was, until someone hadta piss me off.
see.
everything i predicted has happened.
everything i do or say is wrong.
i noe i am pharkin stoopid.
im jinxed.
what more do u want from me???
just enjoy urselves like how ure doin rite now.
u are happier without me, everyone is, i can tell.
and i am happier now.

at least if not happy, im at peace.

anyways, my company wont make any difference in the situation.

if anything it might just worsen the situation.
so, here come's my fave quote "dont bother"
and please lah.
dun tell me what to feel and dun ever tell me what to do.
what, am i supposed to do everything u say and ask me to?
u say u wanna help.
well here's sumthing to help me at.
help understand me.
u dun hafta ask me to noe how i feel.
im sure u have feelings, so all u hafta do is just sit n think.
just sit and think how would u feel if u were in my shoes.
dun just blame and accuse and instruct without thinking.
what de hell do u need me for?
im sure u'll be too busy now rite, wats wif projects and stuff.
so again, dun bother.
like u said, no one needs me, what else do u want from me???
or is this just u feeling bored, hence causing u to want to pick fights wif me?
is dis something u enjoi doing?
i dun think so.
well at least i hope not.
but seems like u do.
enjoying this, i mean.
maybe ure just trying to make better the situation, but heres an advice.
don't.
u dun wanna take the risks.
it may get into a bigger mess den it already is.
i never had a problem hanging out with u all.
at least i never wanted to.
i just felt like keeping myself shut and just spend more time wif myself.
is dat a sin???
wtf.
now i feel like i cant do anything right.
if i cant even keep quiet whenever i feel like it, den i say this really is too much.
its pharkin ridiculous ah.
its my pharkin life.
do i hafta ask ur permission if i wanna do anything at all??
ape siak.
dis is like wtf ah.
u noe, i never had a problem with u.
but suddenly, u created dis problem which came from i dunno where.
i think u are confused.
u think i am mad at u people.
u think i am still mad at her.
i tell u now, i am not.
the reason why i dun hang around with u all nimore is just because i dun want to.
cant i choose if i wanna hang out anot??
wtf.
if u think im treating u guys differently, think of how u are treating me.
maybe u dun realize it, but yea what u did hurt me a lil.
i just dun wanna say it cos i dun wanna make a big fuss out of it.
again, i dun wanna make this a bigger mess den it already is.
i tell u one thing eh.
if ure good to me, i'll be good to u at least twice in return.
if ure bad to me, i'll be worse den u at least 3 times in return.
actually i dun even noe why u, of all people, brought up the subject.
why??
u saw a change in my attitude towards u?
well.
one thing, it was because i didnt even see u dat much last week rite.
so wat do expect.
anyways, i could see dat u were busy with stuff, so i didnt wanna bother.
if u cud still remember, i even asked u along if u wanted to follow us watch movie.
but u said u got class, so okay ah.
lemme refresh u on wat happened last week.
mon: didnt see u in sch the whole day, but met u at tamp after school.
tues: i went to meet faz, left early so didnt get the chance to meet u. if not i'd get a nagging from her. at the end of the day, i went back to tamp but ur behaviour was intolerant so i just went like wtf. do u remember when we were at small mac, u gave me dat look? so i tot maybe he's just havin his temperaments. we made de effort to meet u all before we went back, but nina didnt reply, so we headed home.
wed: i hadta return to school bcos nobody told me about the access card thingy. u went out after dat.
thurs: u had ur fren over and went to itas. i did hang out with u all at itas for abit before my jap.
fri: again, i hadta leave school early to meet faz. i prefer not to get nagged. and i didnt follow u all to seoul garden cos i told u ppl im saving up to pay my bills. at least the movie is cheaper den seoul-gardening.
so who do u wanna blame now??
blame me for what, treatin u differently?
and please lah, dun gimme de pharkin crap of "aku carik faz bile dah tkde org laen pat sisi aku" ah.
i even told phuzz specifically "faz, ni mesti klau drg tau yg aku kluar ngan kau, mesti dey will think dat i went out with u because i haf nobody close to me nimore in school.."
but she only said jgn merepeklah, let dem think wat dey wanna think.
well, here's de fact.
she called me up on sun/mon and asked me to accompany her apply job at ikea.
i hadta be her temporary bf cos real one wasnt der.
so please get de facts right before u accuse people of stuff.
and when i told u dis, u didnt hafta turn the tables around and say dat "yelah, kau mane nak carik org, slalu org yg nk kene carik kau...".
wtf ah?!
u said it urself dat u all dun need me.
so, tell me why do i hafta sebok2 pat situ when im not needed?
u told me to live alone, so i guess i will.
u noe, i never wanted to "putuskan frenship" ni sume tau.
its like pharkin crappy and not to mention childish.
i only said i dun wanna get close to u all cos seems like de closer i am to u ppl, the more conflicts i get involved in.
i never told u to stop talking to me or pretend u dun noe me.
wth.
seriously ah.
u guys haf ur own life, just do whatever u want.
peace.

i'm emo @ 8:23 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

its a saturday evening and beep's askin me out to see the fireworks.
i really dun feel like going out of the house.
but i wanna meet dem.
*sigh*
been having trouble at school, with frens.
or shud i call dem "friends".
sometimes, i guess who we take as frens are just not really "friends".
for the past week, ive been faced with alot of disappointments.
disappointments from my friends.
i wish not elaborate, but i feel like i have nuthin now.
i think im surviving.
i dunno.
peace.

i'm emo @ 4:55 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

new blog for me here.

hello everyone.

im cherrymonstar.

peace.

i'm emo @ 3:18 PM

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