Tuesday, October 31, 2006
ok.
last post b4 i get ready for sch.
finally i finished off ep2.8.
now all i hafta do is wait for dem to air de next episode at fox, and den i can watch it.
but eh.
season2 mcm tk best sgt ah.
dunno why.
too many politics ah.
but its still good.
yah.
niwaes.
i dnno what to wear.
shit.
cant wait to go to school.
dunno why.
but.
mcm malas pon ade.
lol.
dah ah.
nk gi siap ah.
no mood to smangat todae.
penat seh.
dunno whats gonna happen later.
i hafta quit dis act u noe.
lol.
oh btw.
remember i told u, i found new love.
haha.
yah.
so as i promised, i bring it up again after a few posts.
well.
he's all good.
and i said der was oni one flaw rite?
heh.
well.
i dunno.
cant share it at the moment.
just dat.
he's almost perfect.
and gd dad even my dad noes him already.
and he likes him.
i dunno.
who doesnt?
peace.
i'm emo @ 10:59 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006
gosh.
todae was like de PRISON BREAK day.
talking bt it de WHOLE day.
god.
end up tiring myself too much.
wats wif de laptop on one hand.
gosh.
niwaes.
did sum shopping todae.
actually not really.
just bought stuff dat i needed.
heh.
like de lappy cover, sum stationaries.
and also a shirt.
but its a lil big.
L's too small.
XL's too big.
haiz.
so i hafta alter it myself.
oh well.
niwaes.
was just bloghopping just now.
everyone nowadays seems to be in love.
hah.
wth.
just fyi, im no longer one of dem ok.
i dunno what happened.
...
TO YOU:
why?
dats de first to de string of qns dat i haf.
lots of qns.
i nd answers.
but i noe im not getting any.
just getting my hopes high der.
still.
im just confused n disappointed.
wth did i do?
was it sumthing i said?
why get me in deeper in de first place?
since ders no answers, i assume.
and i just haf dis to say.
u are no better den dose guys out der.
dis was what i was afraid of in de first place.
i dunno what ur motive was also.
all i noe is dat ure just full of crappy sweet words.
which is so not surprising to me nimore by now.
heh.
and guys.
do not ever try to deny and argue with me when i say dis.
guys are all de same.
in one way or another.
whatever ah.
just too darn tired n sleepy to think bout dis.
just fyi, i didnt really break.
i wonder why.
maybe cos im immuned to it already.
maybe cos i kinda guessed dat dis was cumin and i managed to get prepared b4 it really came to me.
whatever it is.
im still in one piece.
hehs.
i'm emo @ 11:36 PM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
hah.
just wanted to share sumthing with u all.
altho it may be unneccessary info to u all ah.
haha.
recently, ive been having strange dreams.
heh.
last thurs or wed, de day i found out i had de first disease, i had a dream.
in de dream, i was also sick.
suffering from what i am suffering rite now.
"tompok" ni ah.
but oni thing in dis dream is dat i was really really sick.
i was dying.
and all i cud remember was my last few days in dis world, spent at a hospital.
and surrounding me, were all my frens.
hah.
weird.
den de next day, i dreamt dat i was a smoker.
there were 3 of us.
me, wak, and i dunno who.
nina or faz.
i cant remember.
we were window shopping sumwhere.
den wak took out a cigg.
and i snatched it away from him.
both he n de other person were shocked as hell.
and den, i smoked dat cigg.
dey just looked.
actually, wak took it out for himself.
he also dah jinak2kan diri nk smoke.
but in de end, dey just stared at me in disbelief.
i was sucking it in.
and i remember it as a very awful experience.
not at all pleasant.
it was choking.
like very pekat.
and i kinda forced myself to smoke dat thing.
actually i didnt want to.
but i felt like i hadta show wak n de other person dat im "cool".
just because im smoking.
lol.
wth kan.
and den, this morning.
slept at 3.30am.
had a dream.
i was an inmate.
lol.
and i got tattoos all over my body.
all bcos of pb.
i think im going haywire.
lol.
oh well.
peace.
i'm emo @ 10:02 PM
heh.
on de last episode of season1.
god.
so clossseeeee.
haiz.
niwaes.
this show is good u noe.
well, besides de storyline dat is.
one thing, it improves my english.
and second, it makes my brain think.
it really does improve my eng u noe.
ive since started talking like dem.
lol.
think its driving a.adzil, slenger n bacin crazy.
lol.
whatever seh.
haha.
i assume many girls wud die to be with him.
but me.
i'd rather be him den be with him.
admire him.
heh.
i noe im living in a fantasy world.
haha.
so absorbed in dis rite now.
all i ever think about nowadays.
haha.
but den again, i think its better if i live in my dream world instead.
cos i get to decide wat happens next.
unlike reality.
im helpless.
just going with de flow.
even as much as i try to do sumthing, i can only do as much.
heh.
oh well.
sorry got carried away for abit der.
niwaes.
i move on fast.
have a new love rite now.
all's good.
educated, good-looking.
only one problem.
heh.
i'll update soon.
peace.
i'm emo @ 7:48 PM
im done with myspace.
get out of my life.
peace.
i'm emo @ 1:12 AM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
hadta help out uncle todae.
was reluctant yesterday.
but todae was ok.
cos got money.
ehem2.
lol.
:)
anyways, woke up at 6.15am dis mornin.
heard dem go off dy.
its ok.
decided to go myself niwaes.
well, was kinda surprised i woke up.
was about to go back to sleep actually, den remembered.
haha.
u noe wat, i actually had 12hrs of sleep dat nite.
on fri, reached home at 5 plus ptg.
masok bilik, tgk katil, baring, tros tetido.
hahaha.
all de way tido til de next morning.
siak eh.
all because i was awake 33hrs de day before which was thursday ah.
doing what?
watching prison break.
lol.
wth ah.
oh yah.
told u i have a disease rite?
now i have 2.
one of dem is dis addiction.
heh.
even when i was out at wak ali's house just now, my mind couldnt stop playing back de scenes of de episodes.
and keep on thinking what cud possibly happen next.
now im at ep1.16.
yea.
if im not wrong ah.
serious seh.
addicted giler.
now kpale dah pening.
i think cos of all de staring at the lappy/comp in de dark.
haiz.
de shows good btw.
brings all kinds of emotions to u.
a specialty is de climaxing part ah.
obviously.
makes u sit at de edge of ur chair.
hahaha.
dah ah.
im like writing a movie review.
lol.
yah.
so its like 33hrs of non-sleep, and den 12hrs of sleep straight.
and today, i dun think im sleeping.
:)
oh!
and faz!
dat was de reason why i didnt pick up ur calls dat day.
fone was in my room, i was outside.
didnt visit my fone til like 3 plus.
cos i didnt think dat anyone wud call me .
oh well.
senang2 call lagik k.
hahaha.
gosh.
headache man.
oklah.
cant type much.
nd to wash up, and den.
back to de story!!
hehehe.
daaaaaaa.
peace.
i'm emo @ 11:14 PM
Friday, October 27, 2006
wahahahhahahaha.
pathway to hell.
lol.
i'm emo @ 2:15 AM
heh.
sch's been fun.
if not distracting, at least.
good dat it has taken my mind off stuff.
arts app lec was great.
ashik was fun.
wahahhahaha.
got a feeling we gonna be close dis sem.
haha.
niwaes.
summarise todae.
was great.
was at the east gate bustop with ashik.
waiting for 23.
den this bus cums along.
8 i think.
haha.
and one cute guy was sitting at de last row, bottom deck.
i was looking at him.
dunno wat my expression was, cos when he looked at me, he gave a small smile.
heee.
like first time seh cute guy smile at me pat luar.
nyeahahahha.
was beaming all de way.
lol.
btw, im starting prison break all over again from ep1.1.
coolness shit.
yah.
so.
3 things dat made my day today.
nina's company+COMPLIMENT, dat bus guy and prison break.
heee.
addicted to it.
oh.
btw, i have a disease.
dun cum near me.
aku berpenyakit!
pembawa disease.
dan kamu.
pembawa siaL.
hehs.
peace.
i'm emo @ 1:04 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
confused.
hurt.
pissed.
add dem all up together, and u get:
ME.
peace.
i'm emo @ 1:53 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
i think i might need to change to a new blog.
heh.
anyways, faz.
quickly meet me up.
before my hair grows long.
dats all ah.
malas nk cite2 bnyk2 psl isi hatiku.
tk gune.
dey cannot help me.
no one can help me, except myself.
anything, i'll update u by mouth.
peace.
i'm emo @ 10:37 PM
i hate myspace.
actually no, i just hate de KIDS in der.
ckp ngan drg, diam2 sdah eh.
pissed.
i'm emo @ 9:26 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
i dun like dis feeling.
tahan. tahan. tahan.
im afraid i cant hold on for long.
help.
someone.
peace.
i'm emo @ 12:05 AM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
here's a post to the public.
please stop making halimaton shahidah feel so low n down bt herself.
what do u actually get when u say bad things bt her to her?
dats one thing i really wanna noe.
do u actually get excited, after telling me dat im fat, and ugly?
yesterday, my frens.
todae, my family.
tmrw, my husband?
was in de car just now.
bacin was again, insulting me and telling me how fat i was.
i was soooooooooooooooooooooo pissed, dat i felt like smashing his head against de side window.
really!
i almost did dat!
urggghhhhh!!!!
he and dad always making me feel down and low bt myself.
and den mum.
and den slenger.
wtf?!
what de hell do dey get when dey say all dose nasty things?!?!!!
piker klakar ape?!
COME ON LAH.
IM FAT, AND I CAN SEE DAT.
SO I DUN NEED U PPL TO RUIN MY LIFE AND TELL ME AGAIN N AGAIN DAT I AM.
I CAN SO FUCKIN SEE DAT FOR MYSELF.
URE JUST WASTING UR BREATH AND ENERGY TELLING ME DAT OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
KAU RASE HAPPY SGT KUTOK AKU GINI??
u noe.
seriously.
if by de end of next yr, der isnt a day where im not being told dat im fat, i think im gonna kill myself.
im just sooooo sick n tired dy lah of ppl telling me dat im big and fat.
mule2 aku diam diri.
makin aku diam diri, makin menjadi2.
first it was deedeal.
den nasrul.
den my family.
den now?
my 2 bestfrens too???
wth.
im so disappointed n hurt ah.
and now dat ive mentioned dis, dun fucking tell me dat i shudnt take things seriously n dat u ppl are just joking ah.
nk joke tgk tempat ah.
wth.
pls ah.
just do me one fuckin favour.
pls keep ur bad comments to urself.
i dun need it.
peace/pissed.
i'm emo @ 11:23 PM
been a few days since i updated.
grown dependant on blogger since i made dat many-many-entries-on-one-day entry.
haiz.
cleaned my room on tues and wed.
went to jb on thurs.
THURSDAY:
met ibu, after so long.
been few months since i last saw her.
terok eh anak gini.
haiz.
but i did had fun with her.
we were breaking fast at sum gerai tepi jalan.
den dah mkn2 sume, i think she was full dy ah.
hahahha.
den like small kid seh she.
haha.
alih2 she say out, "eh, ibu mcm nk muntah ah..."
wahliao.
she was done eating, but i wasnt.
den she made gagging sounds.
kauuuu.
tk senonoh seh.
hahaha.
den i was like ish stop it sehhhh, org tgh makan sehhh.
den she say, "ish. ibu klau nk muntah, ibu berdiri tros muntah! pastu, jolok2 lagi kai sudu!"
wahliaooo.
tu part i literally laffed out loud together with de food in my mouth.
hahahha.
i really cant imagine my own mother doing dat seh!!
den i say, "hahaha! kauuu. klau ibu gitu, org lari dulu seh."
seriously.
imagine if she were to do dat, den org sume tgk.
wahahaahhaha.
ok nemind, inside joke.
anyways, after dat went to angsana.
bleargh.
boring.
saw nice vans shoes.
but, heh.
muka ibu nk belikan barang2 gitu.
muke ibu nk belikan barang2. fullstop.
heh.
den mrajok kejap.
but malas ah nk mrajok, cos...
alah.
whatever.
anyways.
saw timon n linda n tepo at angsana.
selling lekor.
hehehe.
de lekor at jb is damn nice.
so lembut.
so very unlike de lekors here.
mcm ubi kayu.
bleargh.
and saw si sani hussein also.
if im not wrong dats de name ah.
yg act cite soldadu.
now he's into arts n producing n i dunno wat ah.
but as usual, i dun like to stare at dem, and make dem think dat dey are damn popular and well-known, so i didnt look at him much.
ah.
after dat.
went to danga bay, rumah limas.
go meet abang.
heh.
den saw gajah, epul and sinta!
hahaha.
sinta.
the love of his life rite now.
but dunno if dey're together dy anot.
whatever ah.
den went back.
azim was home.
btw, azim is asyQee's fren, my now, abg angkat.
since when my mum angkat him also i dunno.
tot wanted to wait up for asyQee, so he can bring jalan2.
but den i tot.
tkpelah, takot jadi like de last time we went lepaking together.
ish.
and niwaes, i knew de next day wud be along day for me.
and it really was.
FRIDAY:
janji ngan min kol 1 at yck.
so woke up at 10 plus.
siap by 11.30.
but ibu sengaje lambat2 kan diri.
i was so damn pissed at her.
she purposely deelee-darleed.
urgh.
she didnt want me to go back so early.
wanted me to stay der longer and help her clean de house.
and i so hate cleaning dat house.
mcm2 binatang yg akan kluar.
lipas, cicak, spyder, tikus, semut.
sume kluar.
kucing pon ade.
ayam pon ade.
heh.
anyways.
finally, left de house ard 12.15.
tu pon after i make noise.
heh.
and with the car's aircon not werking, i was perspiring all de way to larkin.
and so so damn pissed by dat time.
was like frowning de whole journey der.
it was 12.30 by de time i took de bus.
and reached wdlands ard 1.30.
met min at bns ard 1.45.
and she told me de news.
dat beep couldnt meet us rite after werk.
dat she got meeting, and can oni meet us after buke.
wahliao.
wth ah.
so it was like 6hours of waiting for her.
6 damn freaking hours u noe!
so we became some homeless children, roaming de streets of city hall.
was really2 bored with no idea where to go and what to do.
finally we went to marina, and sat at sum bench, taking pictures.
after dat, ard 4 plus, we decided to break fast at beach rd(the final product).
and i hadta give de SMART idea to walk from ct hall to beach rd.
smart abes.
furthermore, neither of us knew where we were going.
so we just walked following de direction of my instinct.
and finally i managed to see parkview sq.
heh.
so we walked and walked til we FINALLY reached bugis.
den dah, lost again.
dunno how to walk from bugis to beach rd.
i forgot how dat time we walked ah.
shit.
den menyempat kite stop jap, tgk map.
kental kan!!!
wahliao.
tkleh angkat seh.
i feel so lame ah dat day.
especially after spending near a day with mean.
nyeahhahaahahaha!
heh.
finally hajat kite nk berbuka di beach rd terpakse dibatalkan.
and we ate at zam2 instead.
wahliao.
melampau.
shud haf just shared one dish.
urgh.
after dat met beep.
at ct hall.
and again, we were forced to ask de qn of de day "nk gi mane ni??"
and again.
aku peh pandai, gi suggest going to town.
haiz.
and i really wasnt in de mood dy, by den.
really.
beep n mean make sum PRETTY BIG jokes bt me.
thinking dat it was funny, when it really wasnt.
really.
tkpelah.
bdae de baru lepas.
kasi lah die bahagia.
but it really wasnt funny at all to me.
haiz.
im so sick n tried of ppl giving me dat.
anyways.
yah.
and to make things worse, i was incontactable.
batt hp was flat.
argh.
hp tk charge, ipod tk charge.
arrrggghhhh.
so left for home ard 10.
dey walked to my bustop n masing2 naek bus
took pics all de way mcm bdk2 belo.
hmm.
but by den i wasnt in de mood and i was damn tired and all i wanted to do was get home asap, charge my fone n lie on my bed.
haiz.
and it was pretty much wat i did.
only, i took a bathe and checked my timetable before lying on my bed.
but too bad, didnt get to talk also dat nite.
TODAE/SATURDAY:
went to dp at suntec.
bought the 26dollars jeans i wanted to get.
slenger n bacin bought tees from topshop.
oh yah.
saw faizal mtn, idris n fahmy der!
hahaha.
fancy meeting dem der.
oh well.
and also went to body shop's exhibiton sale at suntec's hall 4.
wahahahahhahaa.
mum said, "get what u want."
heh.
ape lagi.
i bought a bag full of make up.
heee.
sum of dem i dun really need.
most of dem i never tried before.
and most of dem being bronzers n stuff.
slenger bought sum stuff too.
wth seh.
tk lame lagi seh deiktu.
niwaes.
heh.
stuff happened today dat im just too lazy to update.
haiz.
next entry!
peace.
i'm emo @ 9:22 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
*paste*
*paste*
*paste*
i was broken.
peace.
i'm emo @ 9:48 PM
i just realised dat orang2 yg smangat nk tukar2 font when updating blogs or whatever, adalah orang2 yg btol2 tkde keje.
argh.
aku lah salah satu orang tu.
sampai 6 kali update satu hari.
i was damn bored.
couldnt sleep.
bed was full of stuff, how to sleep?!
tkde selera seh.
den dis morning, after sahur, on the lappy again.
update blog again.
but i couldnt take it nimore.
took my pillow, wore my biggg sweater,took my blanket and laid on de floor.
heh.
it was cold seh.
and i slept soundly.
until ten plus, continued sleeping.
woke up at 2 upon receiving a msg from llama.
den daddy knocked on de door.
kuat plak tu.
ish.
memekak btol.
den die noisy2 cos tk abes2 kemas, and sumore aircon on de whole day since yesterday.
heh.
arrrggghhhh!
so now, blom mandi lagi, dah on lappy, tk tau kol rape nk start kemas.
ish.
i am such a lazy gerl.
haiyah.
oh well.
i think i really hafta get going.
need to finish cleaning today seh.
if not tmrw2 cannot go out ah.
haiz.
ok go!
smangat tone!!!
...
bleargh.
peace.
i'm emo @ 2:50 PM
50 things to think about.
1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.
2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)
17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm... a. ...having a fat day. b. ...not feeling "connected" to you. c. ...blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I want to be Madonna.
31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
44. I like porn.
45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.
46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember everything about our relationship.
50. You should know all this and more with-out my telling you.
and so i especially would like to point out these points:
no 6. (in dis case, "i wud like it if...u do dat.")
no 32. honestly. seriously. truly.
no 34. yes. so pls do us de favour.
no 36. well, which girl doesn't??
no 48. last but not least.
i'm emo @ 6:06 AM
was talkin to nina over on msn.
heh.
she gave me a few advices.
yah.
exactly.
nina giving advices to ppl.
susah dpt tu.
so, its...
jgn bbual2 kuat sangat.
jgn mrajok kuat sangat.
and jgn gemok sgt kan.
ah yelah.
i'll bear dat in mind.
oh yah.
and jgn asek nk take je.
i assure u i'll try my best to make this happen.
i hope im not dancing tango alone.
im missing u.
peace.
i'm emo @ 4:34 AM
arrrrrrrggggggggghghhhhhhhhhh.
imissuimissuimissuimissuimissu!!!
i'm emo @ 2:28 AM
oh.
i forgot to mention.
he looked good dat day.
i was meltin de whole time.
love.
i'm emo @ 12:27 AM
todae im double fasting.for de past 24 hrs, saya tidak mengucapkan kata-kata sayang kepada mu.kata *muacks*, or sayang or dear, tidak kluar dari bibir atau di sms-sms ku.heee.dun ask why.peace.
i'm emo @ 12:01 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
heys.
wth seh.
pissed off siak aku bbual ngan deikni.
si soephian ni.
btw, he's my ex-boyfren, ex-fren.
haha.
all bcos of one girl.
at one point of time, i used to be close to him.
dat was after we broke up ah.
i wud tell him hu im going out wif nowadays, share problems and all.
den he started seeing dis girl.
he told me alot bt her.
den suddenly sumhow we stopped contactin.
dat was thru fone n sms ah.
den in msn pon seems like semakin jarang ah bbual.
den as months passed, it came to a point where we stopped contactin totally.
tk tegor pon in msn.
dis was like ard early dis yr.
or march.
i dunno ah.
den ape ntah, like until recently, suddenly he tegor in msn.
tu pon not dat recent ah.
like 2 months ago or wat.
den alih2 de tegor, and asked how i was and all.
den ape ntah, he told me he and his gf fought bcos of me.
like wtf kan.
we never even contact or whatsoever.
he told me, she got mad bcos my no was in his hp.
wtf?!
den aku dah biseng2 ah pat deikni, tell him ah dat his gf is being ridiculous.
i asked him to tell her dat we havent been contactin for so long dy.
den he said he did try.
but de gf was like "i cant forget how manja2 u guys used to be".
whahhahahahahha.
big joke der.
firstly, as far as i can remember, i never was manja wif him.
really.
never.
hello, i was wif him for oni like wat seh, 2 wks??
ah.
and he was one of dose non-serious ones.
yea.
dats first thing, i was never even manja when i was wif him.
and, second thing, i was wif him even before she met him!
im his ex, for gods sake!!
even as much as she wants to, she cannot change the past wat!
kental kan!
i was wif him, abeh, wat can she do to change dat?!
kauuuuuuuuuu.
kental siak ni pompan.
ish.
den, when he told me, he fought wif her and all.
i got really pissed off seh.
pissed at her for doing dis to him.
pissed at him for letting her treat him like dis.
mrepek kan.
but den, i just couldnt be bothered to get involved.
i was more like, "gasak krg ah. if she carik psl wif me, den die kene ah."
dat was my thought at dat moment.
and from den on, aku like really really malas nk layan him.
totally.
he tegor in msn pon tk reply.
if reply pon, he ask sepatah, i ans sepatah.
heh.
den tadi he tegor.
like usual, malas nk layan.
he asked if i got de song my heart.
sent it to him.
den he asked, "u tgh buat ape?"
ME: update blog
on de fone
HIM: ohhh..ngan boi eh....hehehe
*no reply*
HIM: i wana ask u eh
HIM: if la kan
HIM: if u boifren esek marah psl u keeping numbers of ur ex-sch mates...
HIM says: how u fil?
HIM: smpai nk break up
HIM: wad wld u do?
ME:kental ah
HIM: k
HIM:switch dat to my gf
ME:i wud be like "eh whatever lah eh"
HIM:frst of all... ur number ... dier dah biseng2.... den mintak brk
HIM:i rujuk dier...
HIM:den now... i kip my ex sch ite kawan nyer number pon boleh jadi gado
HIM:u tgk ar..
ME: rujuk kape
HIM: dah mcm tk trust in me sey
ME: tau tkpe
HIM: esek2 insecure...
HIM: for once la... believe me la...
HIM: siket2 fil insecure
HIM: i pon naik penat tau nk rujuk...pujok... pompuan tau
HIM: serious ar..
HIM: im tired
ME: ckp ah ngan die
ME: tell me for wat
HIM: i blng siket2 den merajok..
ME: u shud be telling her and trying to convince her
HIM: i tried..
HIM: no use
HIM: she doesnt believe wat i say
HIM: mcm nk pecah kepala sey
HIM: i try nt to hurt her by my words ar
HIM: how sey
ME: but honestly lah eh
ME: if i was in ur place,
ME: wif my tolerance level
ME: dah lame seh i leave her
ME: sorry to say ah
HIM: nah..its aite. its ur opinion
ME: oh wel
ME: *well
HIM: im leaving for australia in 2wks time...
HIM: n she uat hal
HIM: de best part is... wen im there... out in de live firing area... theres no reception
HIM: so i wont b able to make calls or msg like... 2 n half wks
HIM: dat leaves tings for her to tink it tru
HIM: ...
HIM: ni tkleh... tu takleh..
HIM: kawan salah..
HIM: kluar ngan kawan salah..
HIM: kluar gi JB ngan fam salah
HIM: i nk beli PSP pon dier bising2
HIM: ckp waste duit la
HIM: eh, i nyer duit... i nyer suker la
HIM: i yg kejer... bukan dier....
HIM: sumtimes i jus fil like... kill myself... n nt to exist
HIM: esek i uat dier happy
HIM: wen am i gonna b happy
HIM: nt dat im being wit her.. im nt happy... dats nt wat im implying...
HIM: i am happy wit her..
HIM: bud, she don hafta treat me mcm ni per..
HIM: ..
HIM: aniwaes..
HIM: i gtg
HIM: thnx fer de song
HIM: thcr
HIM: byes
ME:errr
ME:ahh
ME:sure
ME:tc
ape ntah.
pls take de time to read dat.
tk kuasa pon, kuasakan diri lah bace tu convo eh.
dah penat2 org edit ni.
ish.
anyways.
so, im just like, whateverlah eh ian.
hahaha.
mungkin, ade org terase if i say dat again.
whatever lah eh iannnnnn.
hahahahahahhaha.
anyways, sorry out of context.
heee.
anyways.
forget bt dat.
aku ni nk story psl sun and mon.
SUNDAY:
last day of werk.
tkde mood.
whole day was quiet.
even haikal noticed.
hahaha.
he was sad, i cud see.
i almost cried at de end of de day, looking at him, at a.adzil, at cik ros.
haha.
haiz.
den before i left, i dedicated a song to all my fave gerais.
heee.
dat excluded de teriyaki boyz.
heh.
whatever.
yah.
but really seh.
i teared a lil when i was leavin de place.
so i quickly called him to distract myself and not cry all de way home.
ish.
ape seh.
haiz.
anyways.
MONDAY:
went shopping.
first went too town.
drop by at bad's place.
but she cudnt talk much cos de boss was ard.
kesian de.
ishhh.
walked to somerset, den took train to bugis.
heh.
all de way we went window shopping.
cos i cudnt decide wat to buy.
nuthin really attracted my eyes.
went from bugis junction to bugis village to icon, still havent bought anything.
ish.
so since it was 6 already, went to tong seng.
sat der.
sampai ngantok.
when we arrived it wasnt really packed.
but ard 6.20 onwards, org makin ramai.
so i had my seafood soup.
wheeeeeee.
and den, after dat we went to bugis village again.
cos i wanted to buy reefinn's present.
wanted to buy him a t-shirt, and myself a watch.
went to dat shop.
last2 tk jadi belik jgk.
den walked sum more to look for t-shirt.
finally decided to buy from topshop.
sekali sekala nk splurge for my adek.
lol.
whateverlah tone.
after dat went to dorothy perkins and saw dis cardigan.
loved it.
bought it.
and another long sleeved shirt.
and bought a bag.
and a watch.
and topman striped tee for reefinn.
and also settled my bills.
i was a really happy and contented girl by de end of de day.
and to put a cherry on top of the ice cream, i got to spend de day with u.
heee.
i had a great day.
really.
i hope u did too.
sorry if i got u bored n tired just walkin ard.
heee.
but i really appreciate u accompanying me.
and to think dat i was de one whining and complaining and tantruming.
lol.
oh well.
thanks again ah, for tolerating.
kekekeke.
heee.
TUESDAY/TODAY:
break fast at home todae.
heee.
cam excited gitu.
lol.
maklomlah.
first time buka pat rumah dis yr.
haha.
woke up at 1 gitu.
den cleaned my room.
until now, tk abes2 lagi.
ish.
dah kol 11.35pm.
started de operation at 2pm.
lol.
mane nk abes, maen lappy je.
update blog nye je, dari kol 8 smp skg.
ahhahah.
siak.
anyways, buka today was full of laffter.
heee.
i really enjoyed today.
shared a lot of jokes.
ahhahah.
kecoh ah sume.
heeheheh.
daddy in a gd mood sumore.
heee.
alhamdulillah.
anyways, going jb maybe tmrw or thurs.
buka out wif beep n mean on fri.
anyways.
saya _ _ _ _ _ kamu!!!!
arrrrggggghhhh.
peace.
i'm emo @ 8:32 PM
