Saturday, October 07, 2006
hola.
alone at home now.
fam went to joo chiat.
argh.
so envy dem.
but what to do.
gotta werk.
oh well.
guess im getting my own baju raya.
eh people!
i wanna go geylang!
haizzzzzz.
maybe the last sun of puasa i go geylang.
but dunno with hu.
haiyah.
oh.
niwaes.
dunno why.
suddenly yesterday, i was filled with a sudden hatred for samseng.
when actually he didnt exactly do anything.
hahahahha.
mrepek siak.
the whole day i was like cursing2 him.
kwang3.
and yesterday i was damn pissed off at guys.
hah.
bodoh peh jantan, satu2 dah ade matair lagi nk kenal2 ngan pompan.
dunno ah.
mula2 yg matrep tu yg ade matair.
heh.
lagi lah aku akan pandang hina terhadap nya.
abeh samseng ni plak.
hmmm.
hard to say.
but like i said rase2 mcm he got gf or fiancé.
so whatever.
and so dgn tk sengaje, smlm aku terpandang hina pat die jgk.
didnt even smiled or made eye contact.
oni part time i was going home.
passed by the shop ah when i was going off.
and i was on the fone.
den he said, "BYe!!!"
so terpakse ah pusing.
and just gave him a small smile.
heh.
wth.
and so i think he noticed dat sumhow i was giving him de cold shoulder.
cos tadi pagi ard 4.45am he msged.
he said dat aku ni semakin kerek since dpt tu bnde.
ape je.
wth.
den dis morning when i read de msg, i replied, "Ish..wa tk kerek..lu yg kerek since i dunno when..heh.."
yah.
tgk ah nari cane.
ahhahahah.
u noe i feel kinda stoopid.
being mad at him,bcos why?
cos I THINK he has a gf.
when in reality, i dun even noe if he noes dat im mad at him, and de fact dat he might not haf a gf or fiance after all.
so ntah ah.
tone mrepek ah.
tk tau ah.
anyways, whether he has a girl or not.
i haf cum to a conclusion.
i mean.
wat cik ros said was true.
which most of it i already noe.
yah.
im gonna keep my distance away from him.
lagi2 skg aku dah terjatoh.
haiz.
this morning i was thinking.
aku dah bnyk kali terjatoh.
most of de times, aku bgn sendiri.
a few times, ade org (lelaki) help me up.
but only to push me off himself.
and now.
aku dah terjatoh lagi.
will he help me up?
and push me after dat?
or will he just help me up and hold me in his arms?
hahahhaha.
kauuuuu.
ton jiwang siak.
mrepek ah.
oh well.
niwaes.
again ppl.
i cant wait for school.
miss u guys.
and sorry i cant buke with anyone at all this bulan ramadhan.
i can oni go out on the last 2 days of puase.
cos bazaar dah tutop.
hahaha.
and i think im gonna miss de bazaar.
lol.
wth ah.
this is a post of mixed feelings from a tk btol peh org.
heee.
ok dah ah.
sbelom aku makin mrepek pat sini baek aku brambos.
nk siap.
heeee.
peace.
i'm emo @ 12:03 PM
